The Life that Became the Soulcrafted Field
My name is Tīrṇā.
The name comes from the Sanskrit root √tṝ - to cross, traverse, overcome or pass beyond. It means she who has crossed. Tīrṇā arrived much later in my story, long after the near-death experience, the ego deaths, the initiations and the years of integration that followed. The name did not begin the crossing. It recognised one that had already taken place. For most of my life, I was known as Priya.
Before the near-death experience
My conscious work with myself began in 2009 with a simple thought: "I am not happy with how I am."
I could not have known how thoroughly that one recognition would dismantle what I understood about myself.
I moved through relationships, identities, beliefs, conditioning, awakenings, loss, love, illness, marriage, divorce and many versions of the person I believed I needed to become. I had lived through abuse, abandonment and the gradual silencing that happens when belonging requires you to become smaller than you are.
For a long time, I thought transformation meant becoming a better version of myself. Eventually, I began to recognise that much of what I called “myself” had been assembled through adaptation, inherited survival and conditioning that began long before me.
I had already spent years working with epigenetics, ancestral patterning and the architecture of identity. I was beginning to recognise what I now call the epigenetic ego: the version of the self shaped by what the body, family and lineage learned they had to become in order to survive.
It was not false in the sense of being meaningless. It had kept me alive. But it was not the whole of who I was. By 2023, I was not new to inner work or multidimensional experience. I had spent fourteen years examining my patterns, choices, relationships and consciousness.
Then, in October 2023, the nature of that examination changed completely.
The threshold
A perineal abscess progressed into sepsis, and within a matter of hours I became critically ill. I spent almost twenty-one days in hospital and was on a ventilator for close to fifteen days. My blood pressure could not be read properly, and my blood sugar had risen to approximately 500–600.
The doctors told my mother that my condition was extremely critical, that there was no guarantee of survival and that they would have to wait and watch while continuing to do everything medically possible. My body was in the ICU, but my consciousness was not consistently inside it.
From the beginning of my experience outside ordinary embodied consciousness, I was inside what I can only describe as a ship.
Its surfaces appeared simultaneously like glass, windows and monitors. I could see everything through them, as though the ship was both a means of travelling and a place from which I could observe different locations and realities. I was not moving through these places alone. I was with the beings I recognise as my high council, and they were facilitating the journeys. I told them where I wanted to go, and they took me there.
I wanted to see Antarctica. They took me to the underground reptilian caves of Antarctica. I travelled to Africa and through other locations on Earth, as well as through environments that did not resemble ordinary physical reality. I encountered information about simulation, dimensional realities, the matrix, non-linear time and forms of movement through time and consciousness that I still cannot translate completely into human language.
My father, who had died in 2018, was there. I also encountered divine, cosmic and extraterrestrial intelligences, together with those I know as my Lyran soul family.
Around the seventh day, I was given a choice. I was told that if I did not want to return, I did not have to. I was given three days to decide. For most of those three days, I did not want to come back. I considered leaving seriously. But as the final day approached, I began to sense that the choice itself might be a test. I asked several members of the council whether it was a trick question. No one answered me. They only smirked. I then asked what would happen to the mission for which I had been born if I did not return. I was told that I could give it to someone else, that I could teach another person to carry it. There was nothing wrong with someone else completing the work. But another question arose within me: if leaving now meant that I would eventually have to return and begin again, what was the point of abandoning the life already in progress?
I chose to come back.
Immediately after making that decision, there was an interval I cannot account for. I was neither where I had been nor conscious of being inside my body.
The next thing I remember is waking in the hospital. A nurse asked whether I was all right. She told me that although I had appeared to be sleeping, I had been speaking and calling out to the cosmic Mothers and other beings.
From that point, my physical condition began to improve. My oxygen, blood sugar and blood pressure gradually stabilised. Eventually, the doctors told my mother that I was going to survive. The medical staff who had witnessed my condition repeatedly told me that they had not expected to see me get up and leave the hospital.
But I did.
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The choice to remain
Approximately one to two weeks after returning home, I had a dream in which I witnessed multiple deaths of my own.
I slowly recognised them as other occasions on which I had been given the same fundamental choice: whether to remain or leave. In each of them, I had chosen death.
This was the first time I had chosen otherwise.
The dream changed my understanding of what had occurred in the ICU. The choice had not merely been between life and death in October 2023. It felt like the interruption of a much older pattern.
I had chosen to remain not because I feared death, but because I did not want to abandon the purpose for which I had entered this life and then return to begin it again.
The near-death experience became a threshold because this time, I chose life consciously.
Researching what I could not name
When I returned, I did what I have always done: I questioned the experience. I researched near-death experiences, out-of-body consciousness, altered temporality, dimensional models, simulation theory, consciousness studies and quantum ideas about time and reality.
I found correspondences, but no single explanation. Near-death research offered language for out-of-body perception, altered experiences of time, encounters with deceased loved ones, movement through non-ordinary environments and the profound changes that can follow a return. Consciousness studies allowed me to question whether awareness is always as localised to the physical body as we assume. Ideas emerging from physics, cosmology and theories of time offered conceptual ways of thinking about non-linearity, multiple dimensions and realities that may not be organised according to ordinary human perception.
But none of these frameworks proves precisely what happened to me. I do not use scientific language to make a spiritual experience appear more legitimate. The most intellectually honest position I can take is that the experience occurred, its effects continue, and its final explanation remains open.
The experience itself became material for inquiry, while the experience and its explanation remained distinct. I could take what happened seriously without pretending I had solved the nature of consciousness.
That distinction later became central to Soulcrafted.
What returned with me
I came back with an unmistakable clarity about why I was here. During the experience, I had tried to leave information for my human self to remember. As I returned more fully to the body, a kind of amnesia descended. I could no longer access every detail in the same way. But I had not lost the purpose.
I returned knowing things without always knowing how I knew them. Before the near-death experience, I could channel, but it usually required time and a deliberate movement into that state. Afterwards, communication became much more immediate.
While I was still in the hospital, I met a nurse who was pregnant. I asked her permission to place my hand over her swollen belly. When I did, information about her unborn child began to arrive, and I found myself telling her what I was receiving. It was one of the first indications that something in my perception had changed.
Since then, I have experienced direct communication with plants, trees, animals and newborn children. I began receiving what I recognise as memories of other lives, including a life during the time of Yeshua and Mary Magdalene and a connection with the lineage I know as the Path of the Blue Rose of Sophia. My relationship with time and synchronicity also changed in ordinary, sometimes playful ways. I began noticing traffic opening around me, transport appearing when I needed it and resources arriving through routes I could not have planned.
I do not present these experiences as a formula or ask anyone to accept them as proof of my interpretation. They are observations from my own life patterns repeated often enough that I could no longer dismiss them as isolated coincidences. Mystery had not remained in the ICU. It had entered ordinary life.
The initiations that followed
The near-death experience did not begin my inner work. It took everything I had worked with since 2009 and revealed a deeper architecture beneath it.
In early 2024, Neem Karoli Baba began appearing within my field. Our relationship did not begin with unquestioning devotion. I tested the connection repeatedly, and I experienced myself being tested in return.
That relationship eventually led me to Kainchi Dham.
At Kainchi Dham, I received what I experienced as an extensive download on grid work - what it was, how it functioned and how I was meant to participate in it.
From there, I went to Kasar Devi without fully understanding why I was being drawn there. At Kasar Devi, my experience opened into contact with extraterrestrial consciousness, ships, visions and other forms of multidimensional perception.
That was when Lalitā Tripurasundarī and the Śrī Yantra entered the work.
The Śrī Yantra did not appear merely as sacred geometry to study. It became a living architecture through which I underwent repeated initiations, dissolutions and deaths of identity.
Throughout 2024, I moved through a massive ego death, deep ancestral work, Lalitā sādhana and what I experienced as a movement from higher-self consciousness into monadic consciousness.
In 2025, the grid work returned me to the house in which I had been born. The same place eventually revealed itself to me as the Stargate House.
There, the work moved through the land, the structure of the house and the multidimensional architecture of my own body. I experienced the awakening of my wings, my dragon consciousness and my relationship with serpent and Nāga consciousness. These were not experiences I collected as spiritual credentials. They changed my perception, my responsibility and what my body became capable of holding.
Metacognition, Neurodivergence and the Ego
Metacognition became the level from which I naturally operated. I could observe not only what I perceived, but the structures through which I was interpreting it. Pattern recognition became one of my strongest capacities. This became even clearer when I later recognised myself as neurodivergent-autistic and ADHD, or AuDHD and began to understand how my brain worked. Neurodivergence did not create every aspect of my perception, nor does it express itself identically in everyone. But it gave me another way of understanding my pattern recognition, sensitivity and ability to observe my internal architecture. I could see my ego.
During Lalitā sādhana, I had worked intensely towards what I understood as ego death. I believed the ego needed to be dismantled so that a truer consciousness could emerge. But when I became capable of seeing the ego clearly, I discovered something unexpected. My ego was not my enemy.
It was the human “I” that had carried my history, organised my identity and attempted to protect me through everything I had lived. Because I could observe it, I no longer had to be unconsciously governed by it. But neither did I need to destroy it.
I could speak with it. I could understand what it feared, what it protected and what it needed from me. The relationship became less like a battle for control and more like a friendship. What I had called ego death began to reveal itself as something more precise: not the destruction of the ego, but the end of unconscious identification with it. The ego did not have to die. It had to become conscious of what it served.
I began to experience a soul-level relationship with my ego. It became an instrument through which the soul could inhabit human life holding boundaries, making choices, speaking, creating and participating in the world without pretending to be the whole of who I was.
Embodiment was not the soul defeating the human self. It was the soul and the human self learning how to live in conscious relationship.
My ego became neither my master nor my enemy. It became my companion.
Experience is not embodiment
I cannot honestly say that I have completely integrated everything that occurred during the near-death experience. Some of it remains beyond language. Some continues to reveal its meaning through later experiences. Integration, in this case, does not mean reducing the incomprehensible to a tidy explanation.
It means becoming capable of living responsibly with what I encountered.
An extraordinary experience is not automatically true in every interpretation simply because it is extraordinary. Experiences can be filtered through fear, inherited identity, unmet need, spiritual ambition or the desire to feel exceptional.
Metacognition taught me to examine not only the experience, but the one within me who was interpreting it. I learned to ask:
Which layer of me is perceiving this?
What is recognition, and what is projection?
What is direct experience, and what is interpretation?
What belongs to the epigenetic ego?
What can be integrated and lived and what exists only as an idea?
I do not offer this work simply because I have had a near-death experience, travelled beyond my body or encountered multidimensional intelligences.
An experience, however powerful, does not automatically give someone the capacity to guide another human being. There is a difference between speaking from the intensity of an experience and speaking from what that experience has made you capable of holding. Experience may open a door. Integration determines whether you can remain present to what entered through it.
Embodiment is what happens when an experience has moved through your body, patterns, relationships, decisions, work and way of being human. It is what remains when the intensity has passed and life asks you to live what you claim to know. My life became the first place this work had to prove itself.
Integration and embodiment are the testimony.
Why Soulcrafted became an Earth Mystery School
Information about the Mystery School first came to me during the near-death experience. Its earthly form became clearer through the initiations and integration that followed, and in early 2025, Soulcrafted became Soulcrafted Earth Mystery School.
The word Earth is central to its purpose. Human beings have gradually exiled mystery from Earth. We may allow mystery to exist in imagination, mythology, altered states, other dimensions or somewhere beyond physical life. But when mystery appears here through the body, land, consciousness or events that cannot be explained- we call it coincidence, fantasy or something unreal.
Soulcrafted became an Earth Mystery School to bring mystery close enough to human life that it could be encountered here. Not only beyond the body, but through the body. Not only in altered consciousness, but in relationships, work, land, choice and ordinary life. A Mystery School does not tell you what the mystery is. It prepares you to meet mystery without abandoning your body, your humanity or your responsibility.
Soulcrafted is an epistemology of inner experience. It asks how we know what we know, how we develop discernment around what we experience and how recognition becomes something we are capable of living. It does not ask people to accept my cosmology or reproduce my experiences. It creates structures through which they may encounter their own consciousness directly, examine what is being encountered and learn to integrate it into human life. The purpose is not to leave Earth in search of mystery. It is to become capable of meeting mystery here.
From Priya to Tīrṇā
Tīrṇā did not arrive immediately after the near-death experience. The name came long after the initial crossing and after the years of ego death, ancestral work, sādhana, grid work and embodiment that followed. By the time I recognised the name in 2026, the crossing had already taken place within me.
On September 14, 2026, I began answering to the name Tīrṇā: she who has crossed. This was not a rejection of Priya. Priya began the work in 2009. She lived the relationships, losses, awakenings and dismantlings. She survived the illness. She made the choice to return. She carried what could not yet be explained and submitted it to years of integration. Priya made the crossing possible. Tīrṇā is the name through which that crossing finally recognised itself.
Today, I am the founder of Soulcrafted Earth Mystery School.
I do not stand above the people who enter this field, and I do not position myself as the source of their knowing. My work is to create and hold the conditions through which direct encounter becomes possible and through which what is encountered can be met with discernment, integrated through the body and lived with responsibility on Earth. You do not have to share my experiences or believe everything I have encountered. What matters is that I have learned the difference between having an experience and becoming capable of living what it reveals. That difference is the foundation of my work.
Soulcrafted Mission
Soulcrafted exists to restore the integration between expanded states of consciousness and lived reality-bringing mystery back into the body, the Earth and ordinary human life.
It returns spirituality from something practised in parts to something embodied in full.
Soulcrafted is for those who are no longer seeking escape, performance or identity through spirituality. This includes the seduction of the “chosen” or spiritually exceptional identity, as well as interpretations of the “matrix” that reinforce separation, superiority or distance from human life.
Soulcrafted asks for something different: the capacity to live as coherent, multidimensional human beings within the full complexity of earthly life- grounded in what we are and responsible for how we live.
Through direct work with the body, the field and perception itself, Soulcrafted supports the integration and stabilisation of expanded consciousness within relationships, work, leadership and everyday choices.
This is not about becoming something new or collecting increasingly extraordinary experiences.
It is about recognising what is already present and becoming capable of living it with clarity, discernment, responsibility and depth.
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